Try as hard as you want. Try with money and words. Try with all of your hopes. You can try until there is nothing left. Try until you are translucent. But, until you see the reality, until you see that you are going for the goal that you think you need in the wrong way, you will just run yourself into the ground. If you can’t get past your stubborn ways to see things in a different light, to be open to someone else knowing more than you, being better than you, you will be stuck. Forever turning and trying. And too blind to even know how lost you are. And when people stop giving you the attention you thrive on, you will finally feel the void that you created. You will suck the life from everyone around you trying to regain it. This will happen over and over again.
The way out is so simple and it is right in front of your eyes.
Some people get defensive when I tell them I don’t eat sugar or milk or processed food. They argue with my choices, and try to convince me that I am ignorant. I know its just because they haven’t pulled their head out yet and they are justifying their choices and are not ready to see the reality. They still don’t realize the damage they are doing to themselves and the trap that they are in. I have been there. I understand it all too well. I hope that I can serve as a positive example. My hope for these people is that they pull their heads out sooner than later, for the sake of their lives, and those who love them….
I do not think I have it all together. Believe me. I am the first to admit how many mistakes I make. And I am still learning. But when people argue with me about my choices, when obviously they are healthier than theirs, it just makes me stop and think. And then I realize, that used to be me. And I understand.
HAHA! I am still alive. I swear. 🙂
School starts on Monday for my kids. I have been watching a friends baby four days a week. My son is sick. The smoke from the wildfires has settled in the valley and my head is about to explode and I can’t breath. I have cut almost all sugar from my diet and started my whole family on a clean eating lifestyle. I have lost 11 pounds so far. I workout every day. We have Back to School orientation for my son tonight. I have been driving my daughter to her new job because she doesn’t have her license yet. My husband passed yet another kidney stone. And I have to go get dinner in the crock pot or we will all starve tonight.