This dayPosted: February 14, 2012
Expectations lost. I just tell myself not to have them, but my heart wants.
The day is scattered and has no barrings.
I find peace and gratitude in several small things. Small to most, actually, huge to me.
I celebrate quietly within my own world. My safe world.
Half ass wishes to people that deserve better from me.
Inspiration from those who I adore.
Left empty and unfulfilled.
Love….to be loved….I ache for it still.
What and who will extinguish this need, thirst, and want. And when?
I want for more than the end of the need. I want for the opportunity that I hope can someday exist.
I am never happy for an ending of a day. I always find a reason to linger in it a bit longer.
Today hurt my heart. Hurt my soul.
It is okay because I also know that I am strong. I am stronger than anyone knows.
I will have a fresh start tomorrow. There is promise and love and joy in that.
I am glad this day is over.